I’ve been pretty MIA from this blog, which makes me a little disappointed in myself, but sometimes you have to do what’s best for you and for the last 6 months, I needed to focus. Focus on family, focus on teaching, and focus on pursuing my goal of attaining an opportunity that was staring me in the face. So I took a few ancillary tasks off my plate and spent time focusing on those other priorities. Maybe even a little too much focus, but I did what I thought was best for me at the time.

So, you know the feeling when something is so close you can taste it? You can envision yourself in the situation? You dream about what you can do with that something? You dream even bigger because you know you can do more? It’s like a high of excitement, of opportunity, and of all the potential that is right at your feet.

And then….

The feeling of when that something, the something you’ve been working toward for years, gets taken away from you unexpectedly. Sadness, anger, frustration, and
disappointment…..and more disappointment with a little more anger on the side. 

And a little while later, I took a deep breath and realized I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. The disappointment isn’t gone, but I feel like my shoulders dropped and my face relaxed and that this is probably a blessing in disguise. In a sense, I feel free, that this is my opportunity to create the life I truly want. I don’t know what that life entails exactly but I know that priorities change and I’m excited for the change to come. This may all sound a little cheesy but it’s the truth. I still have plenty of goals that I will achieve, it just may be a different path to get there, which is completely fine with me.

It is my birthday tomorrow and after a tough 26, I am oddly optimistic about 27. It is truly a ‘new year’ and I am filled with excitement to see what’s to come.

-Andrea